Im 17 years old, im 2 and a half months pregnant.
My boyfriend (the father) is beyond ecstatic and can’t wait to see our baby brought into this world, he’s given up drugs and alcohol and has got a great job to be able to be a better dad.
His twin sister, who used to be my best friend hates me. She constantly tells him that either I’m not really oregnant or tha’t it isnt his baby. She refuses to awknowledge me and accuses me of stealing from her and their dad.
Her boyfriend, who was one of my best friends, and his bestfriend are both sociopaths and have been planning ways to kill me and my baby.
My older sister, whom i raised and cared for, had a misscariage two months into her pregnancy and that was four months ago. She posted on facebook after i called her begging her not to hate me and that I’m pregnant, saying she cant believe someone so underserving, unprepared, and irresponsible could be given such a precious gift when hers was taken away.
I found out all these things from other people, these people who were supposed to be great people in my child’s life didn’t have the guts to tell me how they really feel so that i felt dumb and even more hurt after finding out.
The only person who is genuinly there for me is my amazing boyfriend, but i feel like im just burdening him with all of this and keeping him from his own family.
ontop of everything i have a hyperemesis pregnancy meaning if im not medicated or if my medication stops working i have to be put in the hospital on ivs because i cant even keep down water, which means i cant work to help provide for our child.
All i want is to give my child the childhood filed with love and happiness that neither me nor my boyfriend had, but i get more and more depressed every day and wonder if i really want to bring a child into this life. if i even want to continue with this life….. it only continues to get worse and i dont know how much more i can take of loosing everyone i love and wondering if i can give my baby what it needs….. everything feels like its suffocating me and i just want to runaway or let go…..
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Is abortion an option for you? Instead of taking your own life you could stop the child from being born.
But if your bf is really that supportive maybe you guys can do it.
And if you’re serious about those people planning to kill you and your baby then you should call the police!
i’ve considered both abortion and adoption, but for the first i cant kill my baby as an easy out its not fair to the child, and i cant fathom the idea of someone else loveeing my baby more than i already do plus not fully knowing what would happen to it
He really is and he is the only reason i have a small piece of hope left<3
Part of that problem (which i am completely serious about) is the bestfriend is homeless so they wouldt be able to find him and the boyfriend lives with them so i just avoid their house like the plague these days and so does my boyfriend unless his dad wants to see him plus if the police took him away im afraid his sister would wind up hating him as well as me
Scar:abortion is not an option
My mom went through a lot of that with me…and now look at me…imma genius and I go to a great school…I’m here now bcuz of those people…they put in places only beyond worse nightmares….my mom couldn’t do anything because she listened to them….jealousy is something that you can’t control and to be honest,if you are happy with just you,your boyfriend,and that baby that will wind up better than anyone against you could ever dream,then you stay that way…things happen for a reason and sometimes it’s not always what we like….
I hope the best for you
-raven