So its been a bit over a year since i have written on this website. The last time i wrote here, I wanted my life to end. I wanted Â to slit my throat and drain all the blood from my body. My father had just died, my family was broken and my relationship was abusive and horrible. I had been raped and beaten by almost every guy who came into my life and iÂ couldn’tÂ take it. The feeling of being a man’s sex toy. I felt myself losing all hope and sinking deeper into darkness.
But today, 10/9/12
I am now a college student working twords my dream of becoming a photographer. I have a great job at the local TJ Maxx. I moved out of that horrible town i lived in, broke up with that ass hole, left all my sadness behind and now…. Im Getting Married ! Yes i am getting married. Sadly it is going to be a long engagement since im marrying a Marine. But He’s a saint. He take’s care of me, he takes me out on dates and we always laugh. We are as happy as ever and are so in love. We can not wait to get married and start our family. I keep thinking that if itÂ weren’tÂ for the kind people in the world and the people on here who took the time to help me, iÂ wouldn’tÂ have gotten to where i am today. IÂ wouldn’tÂ be getting married or anything.
Thank you everyone. Because of youre kindness and kind words, I was able to survive. Im so happy with my life and im glad i stayed around to enjoy this. I dont know how to thank you all. Nothing i could ever say would express howÂ gratefulÂ i am to all those who spoke to me.
This website and everyone on it (except for oneÂ cruelÂ girl who was really mean) Has helped me so much. I thank you, My soon to be husband thank’s you, and our future daugher, who i will be naming JamieÂ ElizabethÂ Marie after 3 amazing women who helped me one being my grandmother, Thank you very much. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
Im in the light finally, and its warm andÂ beautifulÂ over here.. <3