Does anyone see hope, a soloution for me? Please…

I’m fat, not got the prettiest hair, I’m being treated for acne. Usually these things blown out of porpotion is why I would be depressed right? I wish. I could diet, or get defrizzer or continue with my face gels. But whats the use? My “HOME” life is awful. There is no way to describe it. My dad is every bad word that exists. My mother is useless. My siblings all hate me. I hate my two little brothers because they mirror my dad. I hate my older sister for the pain she causes me, she torments me..shes 0 years old and can make me feel like dirt kicked under the rug. My parents dont love me, or listen or talk to me. I tried to talk to them, tried to tell them I was unhappy tried to get them to send me to boarding school! Dad is mental. Undiagnosed but Im pretty sure hes mental. He is obesssed with work and cleaniness excuses to make me clean and work while hes a fat slob and hes a tinker. Hhe is also agressive and in need of anger management. There is domestic violence, emotional violence, in my house. Mostly directed at me. my mum is useless she doesnt stand up for me anymore. She has realised its easier to let him go ahead. She even helps now. I have friends. They dont know whats going on. They have there own problems. One of my best friend is a lesbian. Her mum is bipolar her dad a fitness freak she has 6 half brothers and sisters and lives with her moddswinging nan, she has attempted suiicide before.. My other friend has a selfharming sister and her parents have just divorced. I listen to them, watch them read whats going on in their lives help them. I am acctually screaming out for someone to do the same for me. I am a strong catholic. Treat others how you wish to be treated. I have tried so hard to do this. But it seems so pointless. It’s not working. I slit my wrists, not deep enough to do anyharm nobody noticed. I cut my hands all over. Peopld asked me I casually said “the cat” they accepted tht when it wsa obvious it was no cat!!!! My life is awful. I just want help. This is only half a story. Words are useless see. Tey cant explain everything. They dont show you through my eyes or through my skin the pain i have endured. I just want help. please….