drained

Have you ever had someone you want to be happy for.But emotionally they just drain you.Thats how i feel.My friends pregnant.Her husbands a jerk. Shes to much of a child herself to be having a baby. And me im trying not to be the enemy and support her. But its emotionally draining cause we argue then she comes back looking for support and its just hard. I know i need to distance myself from this situation but i cant turn her down. Meanwhile im freaking depressed. Sure i havent hurt myself yet but it seems like im just avoiding the inevitable.Around this time my depression hits the hardest. So sure in this time my depression hits the hardest. I see my psychiatrist on monday. I havent really talked to anyone. I isolate and the only thing i think has changed is if i was to really try and kill myself. I might call someone while im doing it hoping and not hoping that someone would save my miserable ass. Im tired of battling this depression over and over again and getting absolutely nowhere.Its like im going in circles.