I ask you this..

If I were to get diagnosed with all the things wrong with me at a psychologist person. Would I still qualify for the army?

I want to die, it seems like a viable option. You can tell me everything will get better but since i was 12 or so things did not get better. I am now 17 trying to hold out, but it gets harder and harder every day. You can tell me something witty now that will stick in my head for the night, but tomorrow I will go through the same phase, thats what life has gotten to. Try as I might, this curse called depression won’t escape me. Nor, with my current mindset, do I want to leave the depression since its my normality, since I have been depressed most of my life.

So tell me something to make me feel better and I shall feel better tonight, but tomorrow you will do the same. Or you can say I don’t know what to say and we will leave it at that.

Don’t worry, during school I shall wear my mask and avoid cracking under the pressure.