Growing up in mexico was hard :/ …I am 15 now I have a sister that is 14 && 2 brothers younger than me, one is 10 the other one is 4 ..Being the oldest is ALOT ! When I was 6 I had to start babysitting a new born ..My mom was never there ,My dad left us when I was 4,He was a dam drunk & I fucking hate him for those two reasons..I was sexually abused by my uncle when I was 4 but I still talk to him like nothing happened D; .. I never had a childhood …i was always told to shut up & dont say anything..Thanks to my past I started cutting myself, I got arrested & started drinking & smoking ..I overdosed on sleeping/allergy pills & drank alcohol at the same time..Twice..But that didnt make me forget my past or pain..I was hoping to die or at least end up in the hospital but didnt,Nobody even noticed I overdosed..I feel hopeless & dead,Nobody listens to me,All my family tells me im a weak,stupid,& useless person..Even my mom ,after all the help I have given her by raising my brothers & sister ..I know my siblings hate me :/ they always say to leave the house or to die..they think it dont hurt me..I act like their words dont hurt me but in reality they kill me in the inside 🙁 i’ve been with 3 physicologist but none of them culd help me,& they’re supossely trained to help ppl like me ..Sum day I think ima end up killing myself but idk..lets see if im strong enough to keep going 🙂
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Firstly I just want to say, I may not know you but your story brought me to tears. I understand that you must be going through pain. And I know you feel that you are on your own, But seriously you’re not. Hang in there, you’re doing an amazing job for a 15 year old. I understand your siblings don’t understand what you are doing for them but you wait when they get older they will remember you as “The brother who never gave up on us”. When your siblings see you strong they will follow in your foot steps but If they see you fall and give up they will fall and give up. Never ever give up. Life is a roller coaster ride and everyone is on a different dollar coaster, Just hang on tight. Good things will come out of your life when you get older 🙂 xo
#you’re stronger then you think <3 🙂
I might be a hypocrite for saying this, but you’re only 15, so please give life a chance. You’ve gone through so much already, but you’re so young that you could find that reason for living. Things can change for the better so fast, especially when you’re so young.
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