No matter what I do, or how many resumes I send off or hand out I get nothing back.
I had one interview since I quit my last job two months ago, the lady pretty munched offered me a job during the interview! But of course she wanted to talk to my refereences ha ah ha, fuck.
It was only on Friday though so hopefully she calls by the end of this week.
I don’t know what else I can do.
I’m hopeless and unemployable because I have no skills or talents.
I mean, I could loose weight and try to do boy magazines but I still need money to buy the diet stuff.
I could always try the defense force again, I have missed two interviews before though so I don’t look very trustworthy or reliable also, I’m 20 in December, you sign up to contracts for 4-6 years, and to be honest I haven’t done anything in my life to make it exiting so far, so I feel like I would be giving my life up completely, I would come out in freedom when I’m 25… How lovely.
I met a boy, I really like him, but he’s leaving for the navy in February 2013.
I get so sad thinking about it even now. Everyone I care about leaves. That’s why I try to distant myself and destroy relationships before they usually have a chance to progress to more.
I don’t kno why I keep doiing this to myself, it’s like I want myself to be hurt and fail at anything I try, I never finish anything, I’m not a social type, if I’m in a bar eveyone will be talking and laughing, and all I’ll do is look and listen, I enjoy that.
No one really notices you either. You learn a lot about people’s who forget you’re there.
I don’t really have anyone to talk about much to either, I tried to talk to my friend about this boy leaving in February and she just ignored it and talked about her and how her boyfriend is, and how she wants to breakl up and then she went to his house tonight at 11 expecting to find a girl in his bed and then she was crying and he was laughing? Luke honestly fuck. I don’t care. If you can’t see you’re in a shit relationship you’re the idiot and i don’t care.
Then I tell people what they don’t want to hear and I’m the negative person for telling the truth, so they ignore me until they want me to drive them somewhere.
I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to fucking do anymore.