I am a 24 year old  suffering with serious depression. I have become obsessed with committing suicide and have been on this site for about a month now haven’t really talked here much my social skills wouldn’t be the best tbh. I don’t like to go out spend all day on the computer and listening to music… to cut a long story short I have really set my mind that this weekend to just get it over with have a method planed out so yeah thats it.
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So why post now? You say you haven’t posted much so far, now you want to end it this weekend, and now you post. Seems to me you must want someone to try and stop you if you decided to post now. Part of you still wants a reason to live. The choice is yours. I’m 25 and sit at home every day too. None of my friends like me anymore. Too much social anxiety to get a job. But I’ll stick around 2 more months and at least see how this 2012 hype plays out. Stick around.
The reason I guess is I finally gotten some work for the first time in months tomorrow but I can’t stop worrying about it and feeling sick to be honest having to meet new people again and getting anxious about it seems to get worse every time I start a new job.
I’m in the exact same boat as you. I have a plan and everything. Going to do it possibly in 3 weeks or so
I’d rather just get it over with, hope it works. Been waiting to see how things go for a while now and I am just stuck here watching life go by with things getting worse.
I got the same exact plan, just waiting for that 21.12 🙂
As for the OP – hope you really know what, and how you’re doing it (ending up quadriplegic, or in a room with padded walls, isn’t a good end).
Good luck.
Yeah hope it works I’d really hate to end up crippled or something like that. Don’t think I’m allowed to give any details about it here.
Nope, I don’t think you are allowed. But if it works, share the howto with us. You’ll be death, so there’s nothing admins can do to you 😉
I know this may sound stupid but would you guys consider not killing yourselves? I randomly stumbled upon this blog and it’s a bit heartbreaking. I know there’s always going to be suicidal people but its sad to me that you guys are on here and seem so open about it but no one is really there to help you. I’m doing my best not to sound ignorant because I know I can’t understand what you guys are going through.
Anyway I hope I can help somehow. If you just want to talk to someone, I could leave my email or something. I really do wish you guys the best, but I hope you choose to keep living. It can be tough but there’s so many great things that make living worth it.
I know how you feel.I’m always thinking what is the best option to get a job or commit suicide.not that I’m lazy,I’ve just got problems
I know how you feel.I’m always thinking what is the best option to get a job or commit suicide.not that I’m lazy,I’ve just got problems
Conrad99,
1. I’m going to kill myself not because someone bullied me in school, or because I don’t have any friends, but because if I live any longer, the last bits of humanity, happiness, and other qualities that makes us human, not just evolved animals, are gonna be gone, and I will become someone I’m not, someone I despise.
2. My being here isn’t that “last cry for help” that people wrote books about. I’m here because I wanted people to know that my suicide wasn’t some thing I wake up that morning with, but a long planned thing + maybe I can help others.
I agree with you ccbp