I know that there are so many people that have problems way worse than mine. So, please don’t judge me..
Lately, i’ve been thinking about suicide. I guess I haven’t done it yet because I’m weak and a coward.
My parents are getting a divorce after 15 years. That’s my age. It really is my fault becuase if my mom hadn’t been pregnant with me, they wouldn’t have been miserable for the last 15 years in a marriage that fell apart.
I just started a new school, moved to a new house. I’m a sophomore. On May 20, 2012 one of my bestfriends got in a wreck and was killed. I’ve been heartbroken ever since. She always gave the best advice. She was a beautiful, talented girl whose smile could light up any room she walked in. She was funny and just amazing. i miss her so much.
And I got bullied at my last school and my permenant record now has a blemish becuase I tried to defend myself. And I’ve already gotten bullied a couple times at my new school though not nearly as bad.
I guess I just feel so alone. I don’t have any reason to keep living. I’m just wasting space.
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I know exactly what your going through. Please keep your head strong. Although your emotions start to wash away like sand on the beach you’ve got to be strong. PLEASE.
I’ll try. You try too <3
Hi Anon. 🙂 You’re only 15, pleeeease give yourself a little more time. There are so many wonderful things you are going to miss out on. I know it may not feel like that right now but it’s true. Hang on a little longer… you’re not wasting space!
Well bro your young and you got time and potential. I been thinking about ending it all myself too but I know it would crush some of my people. As much as I would like to leave something keeps me here, and who knows one day I may lose the little voice in my head that says it ok and not to leave but whether you know it there are people who will be sad to see us go. I lost one of my best friends in a carwreck too. It was the only funeral I ever cried at. I blame myself because I gave him the keys and he was drunk. Some say he wrecked on purpose but ill never know. I lost a true friend that day and somedays I wake up from dreams that were hanging but then I realize hes gone. I dont think he would want me to make the bad choice and your friend wouldnt either. Your still younh enough to go through a good school and become something awesomr bro. Anyway I dont get on here much but I thouhht id try to tell you something good
I feel the same way. I want to go but I just can’t yet. I wish I could. I pray everyday that something would kill me but it never happens.. I’m sorry about your friend. It’s not your fault. Everyone makes mistakes.
you are not a waste of space… your life is precious…. im nearly 15 so im younger than you but i know that things must be tough but one day you will find happiness!!!!