Okay, nothing is working. I’m always sad even when I’m happy, I feel empty. I stopped cutting. although it sounded like a good idea, but I can’t not cut. cutting was my way to release the fucking pain I feel inside. and honestly, I want to start smoking again. I want to smoke and just forget about everything. I’m such a failure. my friends don’t want me to smoke cigarettes anymore, but they have no problem trying to pressure me to smoke cigars (no not those big fat ones that mob bosses smoke all the time) where is your logic??
So, my question to you, where is a good place to cut where nobody can see? I’ve only ever cut my wrist, and hid the cuts underneath my bracelets. but I can’t do that anymore. my friends will eventually notice. and shit will go down. and I’m in no mood or state to deal with confrontations. I hate them.
I just have to cut. this whole quitting thing just isn’t working for me.