I always make schedules.
According to my schedule I had to have readen all three books I needed to read for the two exams I had. According to my schedule I had to finish them last friday. Which was possible if I wasnt just a complete ****.
I already decided to do only one exam because I thought that would be easier and I would at leats get to finish reading for 1 subjct. And I cant. I cant get to finish it. And its not even that hard.
According to my schedule I was supposed to start studying an hour ago. And I didnt do it. Because Im a ****. And now Im freaking out because I have that fucking training to go which my therapist wants me to go to. And I wont be back until dinner.
I am gonna fail so bad. Im such a pathetic failure. Fuck.
If I just wasn’t so fucking stupid it wouldnt be this fucking hard.