I want out

I want out, I want out, I WANT OUT! I’m so tired. I can hardly breathe it hurts so much. I don’t want to die, but I can’t live in this fucked up world and I’m so alone! If there is no God then it’s all meaningless, if there is a God I HATE HIM because he is so cruel. I just don’t want to exist. I want out. I can’t kill myself now, it’s too hard. Fuck i just don’t know what to do, I just write to make myself feel better maybe.

I want out.