I am afraid of dying. After witnessing a year of my depression, helping me numerous times – supporting me emotionally and financially – my friend had offered to stay on the phone with me while I used the exit bag. Now with things closing in, and me not getting any better, he has brought up the idea of staying with me while I kill myself. He says he can handle it. And he suggested a motel as to where to do it. I had thought about this myself. Neither of us know if it’s possible for the motel to sue him or my family for carrying it out there.
I just googled suicide laws in California, and came up with this, regarding how the law would deal with him being with me at the time of death.
“A rarely enforced California law from the 19th century says that anyone who â€œdeliberately aids, or advises, or encourages another to commit suicideâ€ is guilty of a felony.”
I have thought to record it via camera, kind of how they do it at Dignitas, to make sure that there is video proof that he did not aid me in the act. I know death is ultimately a lonely walk, but I am pretty scared and might not mind the company. If you have any information, or feedback regarding this matter, I would like to hear it.
Haha, I just remembered – he told me to post this here. I’ve told him about coming to a suicide forum.
It’s his birthday in a few days. I told him I’ve thought how fucked up it would be of me to kill myself on/or around his birthday.
He said: Well, that will just make it easier for me to remember what day you died.
I know I’m afraid to. It should be easy everyone hates me. But everytime I get near I just get afraid and I can’t move