I just spent the whole day at work sittin oan my arse at my desk silently greetin’ to myself. Trying to hide the tears from my boss and getting absolutely nae work done! There really was no point getting out of bed this morning!
I couldn’t take my mind off the abortion, and what’s more the radio kept on debating about it and it’s bloody morality!
It wis a right nightmare o’ a day so now i’m goin tae the shop getting myself some cold beer and drinking the rest ah the day away!
I’m sick fed up o feelin like this i just go from one day tae the next unaware of anything going on around me, no feeling anythin until i get home and either drink or cut then i feel like a pathetic twat and start greetin more! The psychiatrist wants me to go into hospital, kick about in that place till i feel better but i’d be in there for ages! Plus work is one of the only things i enjoy, apart from days like today!
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Welcome to my world! Except for the abortion part.
I hope you don’t tear yourself up anymore. I hope you heal from this. If you need treatment, maybe it would be good. I just want you and anyone to grow past the pain.
Yeh i’m getting treatment. Really it is a councillor asking questions and me speaking shite that she can’t make sense of then and neither can I!
Boots what about our deal !?
And I really do think that you should go into hospital. It could make thugs easier on you ? Just stick clear of t.v remotes and tea !
You will get through this, I promise !!
It’s all good i’m not going to drink i just feel like it. I don’t know. I think it might help in some ways but in others i think it might just make things worse. Trust me if i go in there i aint touchin the tv remote they can watch whatever they want and i’ll drink the tea on my own, safely away from everyone else!
Yeah I know what you meen. You just need to really try hard. I know it’s hard, but you’ll get through this !!
And good ! You don’t want to get on the wrong side of a crazy person !