Whats in my mind – Poem Writen by me

Controlled by a Masked Man By MissCMF

© Copyright November 2012

I can’t control any move, my head gives up soul comes to prove

The voices chant, the pain begins; I know I will never win

Crashing into tables, causing tears, but no one can know of these fear

When people enter I struggle to stop, act like I’m fine when really I’m not

 

If I told people what’s going on, they’ll think that I’m crazy that I don’t belong

Who has a masked man in their heads, who when takes over makes the real me

The voices he uses are the ones I love; it makes me scared to stay above

To face them, they don’t have a clue, I’m just stupid, a worthless fool

 

I have to keep focused, but he’s in my mind, I can’t keep watching the time

Because I don’t have a choice when he gets free… I’m his puppet, in the count of three

He has me, crashing, falling with fears, dancing in pain, hiding the tears

 

His voices can hurt, say cruel things, It makes me want to get a syringe

Jab in into my arm, push it down let the calm

Spread over me before it all ends, the idea of that is a good cleanse

But I can’t leave the voices, the people I love I have no choice

He’s chosen his ways wisely there’s no way back that’s likely…

 

To keep me safe from his words, calm from the wound the curse

He will never get out of my mind, till his own voice overpowers him, there time to shine

To come through the glass wall, which stops everyone else before

I’m stuck in the darkness, he is definitely heartless

 

I know that he’s coming again, my life killer but my soul’s revenge

He won’t want me to tell, he knows for me this place is hell

Because without the belief, of others, I will have no relief

Of this painful, dance, this rubbish prance

That this masked man controls

 

 hope you like it – its how i feel 🙂