As soon as I am old enough I am going to admit myself into a mental institution so I don’t do anything that will make me even more of a disappointment to others. I have accepted that everyone hates me and my aunt is too kind to throw me out herself. I even accept that secretly my dad probably drank himself to death because he hated me and couldn’t stand me. I know everyone loves my sister and brothers more. I also know that if/when I kill myself noone will care or be sad. This is probably my last entry so for everyone that hates me you’ll be happy and sad. Happy because I’m going to kill myself so you don’t have to put up with me but sad because I’m going to find pills that if you take to many you’ll die so I wont suffer.
Goodbye,
Your Loser,
Michelle
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please, reply to this… dont do it. let me talk first.
I don’t know you, and I don’t know what problems you are facing, but even though life seems tough and you feel like there’s no one on your side, try to keep love in your heart and fight through it. Your dad didn’t drink himself to death because he hated you. There were probably underlying problems that he faced that contributed to his overdose. If your aunt is kind, try to talk to her about how you’re feeling. If you don’t want to talk to your aunt or anyone you know, keep posting on here. You’re not a loser Michelle. Life is beautiful and you deserve to keep living it.
Michelle. What pills?
Most pills are a very slow and painful way to die. And if you don’t die, they can badly damage your organs.
Therefore:
Don’t overdose on pills unless you’ve read up on it, and have a pretty good dealer.
Also:
Many mental institutions just store patients, and pump them full of drugs. In my experience, that makes people into passive zombies, who don’t learn to deal with their problems, but shy away from them. They end up wasting their lives.
You sound resourceful, but maybe you need good people on your side. Learn to identify the people who do you good, and try to be around them a lot. Good people can help you more than any mental institution or suicide ever will.
No offense but nothing you or anyone else says matters,that sounds really mean though sorry.