all be just fine pretending im not

my mom used to get fucked up fuck my friends and beat me but in sept. she tried to commet suicide because ima pice of shit to days later my hole world falls apart… my dad died on sept. 23 i was the one that found him i looked at him and i knew but i didn’t want to i walk up to him say daddy and put my hand on his chest it was the worst coldness iv ever felt i still knew but i still didn’t want to i ran to my best friends house holding back tha tears as soon as i walked into her room she asked me wats wrong as soon as i heard that i fell on the floor crying theres something wrong with my dad she gose into her moms room and tells her moms bf he runs to my house 2 hours later me n my friend were in her kitchen when we get a call from her mom she knows everything now but she cant tell me all she cann doo is cry and say im so sryy Mackenzie… my mom was even crazier after that so now im in foster care in a new town with no friends ohh and speeking of friends all my old friends talk maddd shit about me and my fucked up life…