arghh

another sleepless night with crying, screaming into my pilllow and suffering 🙁 i wrote this in the night…. hope you like it.

fires ablaze within my eyes

a smile concealing all my lies screaming, begging calling out

a final frantic desperate shout.

i dont know why i feel this way

i never asked for pain, tears or suffering i was normal at one point in life

i was full of smiles, laughter and happiness

i wish i knew the cause of this pain to find a way to make it all stop.

have you ever felt like giving up this fight

have you ever slit your wrists or

have you ever picked up a knife

i have one question for you…

have you ever lived my life ?

so why try when its easier to die

why smile when its easier to frown

why laugh when its easier to cry

why try to pass when all you do is fail

why feel pain when you can make it all go away

why love when love is full of doubt

why cant anyone tell me what lifes about.

as i look back in my life

and every choice i made now seem wrong

when the wait to die seems to long.