I have made the BIGGEST MISTAKE IN MY LIFE!! I NOW JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT HE WILL WANT ME TO AS WELL!!… I KNOW HE FUCKING HATES ME AND WHAT IV’E DONEWILL MAKE HIM WANT ME DEAD… I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL WEHNT THOUGH MY MIND…. IT’S TO DO WITH THE DARK LORD…. THE BOY I CAUSED SO MUCH DRAMA FOR, TWO YEARS!! AND I THOUGHT I WOULD BE ABLE TO COPE BUT NO, I’VE MADE IT A HUNDRED AND TEN FUCKING PERCENT WORSE!!! I NEED TO DIE, I CANT FACE HIM, HE HATES ME AND ALL HIS FRIENDS WILL AS WELL!!! WAHT SHOULD I DO?
my friend said i did the rigiht things but im not sure at all, he said dont coumunicate with his family and i messseged him brotherall that i was trinyg to do was to stop the pain that he causes me but i dont think thye understand the turth…. i wanted to be hounest but i think they took it the right way, i appoligized as best as i cold, i said i hated my self because of it, i said i know nothing will come of it… but now i heard people saying hes reallty annoyed now i bet its ecause of me, i feel like such an idiot and a freak why cant i stop myself for dong that? why can’t i face him when i dindt do anything wrong and why do i have to love him and as i said in the message that i will most likely lovehim the est of my life 🙁 xx
i havent eaten anything today apart from a bit of a chocolatesnickers bar, its 11am roughly now where i am, i know its 5 about 5ive fourty with you i’m hungry but i dont want ot eat, i’m only eating the snickers as i dont want ot faint in the lesson… please what should i do?
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Try and get your mind off it, eat something more healthy. Let it go for a day or two. Do nothing, chillax, youll gain perspective. If hes that pissed let him cool down, dont harrass him.
Try and get your mind off it, eat something more healthy. Let it go for a day or two. Do nothing, chillax, youll gain perspective. If hes that pissed let him cool down, dont harrass him.
hes in my essons i have to work with him, i see him everyday and people are gosiping about it like no tomrrow how can i cope?
Thats difficult. Can you ignore him/ them? Do your own thing? And get out of there when its over asap. Idk? I dont know the whole situation. If you ignore him, he will probably try and talk to you. I just think when you get super upset about somehting, sometimes its just best to just let it go for awhile and when you come back to it, it isnt as bad. Youve apologised right? I hope you get through the day.
God, it ws a nightmare, i dont have him last so i’m safe but i have some of his frineds lol, there alright i spouse but they might know about it as well… idk 🙂 ended up having to work with him in a group, that was sooo easy (note the sacrasum) my sster founded it ahrder thoug and in the end we got the work done…
I dont know how much i will be able to cope with again, i mean its ok i geuss and yes i havesaid i’m sorry, and forgiven wheever he did, which was bearly anyhting…. but i havent forgiven myself which amkes it harder i geuss, each time i glaanced at him and he wass looking up at me (as i waa theone making the main document! Doh, mental note: remember not to bring laptop with you for group work othrwise get stuck doing the main thing)… i was kicking ymself, i was phcicly pinching myself as well so people could see i was a little stressed but luckly my sister had most attention on her…
however if i have to cope with it again, i dont know what i will do…. i made sure i was wokring with the other memebrs of the group more… but it was still so akward, he wont talk to me, he’ll tel others what i need to kown and they all say ‘why dont you tell ehr yourself’ but then end up telling me… its like im cursed, if he would talk to me, if i knew he’d forgiven me or at least accepted it and were on school work, group talking bacis i wouldnt find it whard to talk to him… but :/ ope he acts like im a virus andget anyone esle but him to talk t me…. Anyhow i made it though then sorted out the document as best as i could… I am so stressed now after that i am berley coping xx Miss CMF xx
MissCMF,
it’s just another day relax eat something some soup perhaps, don’t get all worked up! the world not coming to an end today, at least not that I’m aware of?
it feels like itto me, i feel so weak, im stuck in a lesson and i have noway of getting food as i have no money, i know people are talking about me because they keep looing over, im so stressed itsunreal, i cant foucs on my work and i dont know how i am going to cope with seeing him again every day (at least i have the weekend i guess) i also saw his brother and he said to me ‘he’s not pleased with you’ whcih i ignored as i was already on a misson… god i wish it wasnt this hard, i knew it would be ad i have no clue how to cope anymore… any ideas? 🙂 xx Btw thank for taking your time to reply!!
Everything boils over, everything. Keep your head high, be confident.