I’m born in a wrong planet :E

I don’t know whats important in my life, what i want , what i’m looking for :E I have cool job with a very good salary and future opportunities, so i need to improve my skills and knowledge more and more but.. : / sometimes i’m Ok and I don’t care about such kind of a things, but often I have long depressions and wishes to die.. I don’t know what’s missing in my life, why am i so different, I don’t even get on with someone they all are at most liers, fools or trying to be fool or something :/ and that makes me to hate them, so i don’t have any reason to love anybody. It’s even hard to have a real friend..  I always say to myself that just never mind I’m too young think about that keep going and you’ll find your type of girl 😀 or something that don’t makes you to give up : / so if i believe in this everything goes pretty cool,then I continue learning the stuff with more and more complex thing, but suddenly i realize that i’m still alone,very bored about my profession, job, people around me and so on and the only thing I’m thinking is to die. And that stops me develop, to be a real expert in my profession, to be close to my friends I always try to ignore them, I don’t do thing i have to do and others : / but finally I just cant move on, I can’t control myself, I’m trying trying but its hard enough to think before every step i I take : / I don’t know why am i posting here but i just wanted to tell somebody what’s in me :E maybe i’m mad, fool, or stupid 😀 but who cares? 😀 so sorry for boring :E