The title says how I feel and how I am.
Pretty much a useless person. I think I am kind to people most of the time, but in terms of helping others, I don’t know how to do it.
Simple things like chores are hard because I haven’t been taught, and apparently, you need sight for a lot of things.
I don’t like wallowing in self-pistty, but let’s be honest, if I stayed, this world wouldn’t be better, and if I left, the world wouldn’t be better anyways.
Am I depressed? Yes. But what can be done? I see a councilor, which is ok, but the feelings of uselessniss still remain all the time no matter how much I do for others, how kind I am to people, etc, etc.
As for why I even wrote this, I have no clue.
Will I take my life? I don’t know anymore.
2 comments
blindaudio,
Actually you don’t sound too bad! I think you can beat it!
My goodness blindaudio, i slap my face everytime i here you saying things like this. You don’t think you’re affliction grants you any sort of leniency? You sound tough as nails; you never even complain about it. It’s almost as though you hold yourself to a higher standard then most people do despite it.
Perhaps you could look into things made specifically for the blind. They have blind schools and universities, and i’d bet they have blind dating websites and other things of that sort, and of course for thousands of years music has been quintessential profession of blind men/women.
By the way you said you are on the wrestling team; that’s nice. I wrestled in highschool and we once had a tournement against a school for the blind. They were pretty tough!