ima different person now…

not much has changed since last time. im way mor confused now than I ever was before tho. my gramas not coming to live with me. im ok with that tho every ting with foster care is going pretty much tha way I want it to skools alright I guess I got a bf within tha first 3 days. he was a good bf then he broke up w me for no fucking reason and strted talkin shit about me but idc he has HIV!!!! happy I never did anything with him. thebreak up did kinda putt me in a deep depression. I started cutting a lot more and I love it ik that its sick but I cnt help but love it I love looking at it seeing the blood feeling it drip down y arm I love seeing it the next day when I wake up in that morning still red nd puffy scabbed up nd stuff most of all I love tha look on ppls face when they c it… I cnt even pay attention in class all I do is cry. but who knows it might get better