Hey, I’m a new user. Barely joined a few hours ago.
Hope all of you had a great Christmas with your family and friends.
Hope the new year brings you some joy, keep being strong.
Flying out,
thebat
Hey, I’m a new user. Barely joined a few hours ago.
Hope all of you had a great Christmas with your family and friends.
Hope the new year brings you some joy, keep being strong.
Flying out,
thebat
Do you ever feel like you have done it all?  You wake up to face the day, feed the dog, dress yourself, brush your teeth, eat some food and go to work.  At work your totally disrespected by your peers and Friday you pick up your check.  At the end of the day you come home and let the dog out to use the bathroom.  Jump in the shower and make yourself believe you are washing away the hate, lies, disgust of the day gone by.  You get into bed, mentally numb in many ways and fall asleep after an hour of thinking about how much you […]
I’ve been having suicidal thoughts today and they’ve been over-whelming to the point where I couldn’t do anything because it felt like there was no point to doing anything because I was so frustrated and angry so I spent my whole day in bed.
I remember back in September when I had suicidal thoughts, there was a day where I had no lab partner in Biology and I told the teacher and she paired me up with a boy in my class who also didn’t have a partner when we finished with our experiment he said “by the way from now on you’re my lab partner” […]
I’ve reached the end of this fraying rope
I guess all that’s left is to hang on
Endure the burns
But I want to die..
I want to die…
Ive suffered from depression for a long time. I made some mistakes when i was young when i was going through some really hard times. Now many years later ive made up for those mistakes and i work very hard. Sadly, a website posted a picture of me when i was arrested like 15 years ago. Now when ever i meet someone new , or someone from my past looks me up on the internet, the first thing they see is this picture of my arrest record. So even though i was not found guilty and the case was closed, i still am sentenced to […]
I remember meeting a very nice person on this site but then she suddenly started ignoring me and asked me not to contact her. She previously told me that she wont let anything happen me and she is here for me. She wasn’t and helped in the beginning of trust issues for me.
Well I think its time to tell people why I cut and why I think I’m depressed. It starts off like all the rest, happy family, with money, love ect.. When I was about four years of age I was working in the farm with my daddy and my sixteen year old cousin, my dad left to get some food for the cattle, I was sitting on a lump of hay. My cousin comes up to me and starts fingering me. It was not a good experience for me and I couldn’t get him to stop. I think he would have gone a lot further […]
Feels like I’m aimlessly floating. The addictions I can’t seem to beat and the ones I just don’t want to or see the need to leave behind. Tired of not living.. but don’t really feel like I want to ‘live’ anymore. Floating around and around. Moving inside my head. Thoughts telling me that I’m not here, I’m not really here.. Just watching everything pass by. I’m not on any medication or drugs, thank you very much. This is how things are. Music drives me. Tales of adventures and forbidden love. I get lost in other worlds.. I can’t handle this one. It can’t handle me. […]
Hey
This is my first time doing something like this. Not sure why I’m doing it, but yeah.
I’m 20 and live in England. Ever since I was young I’ve been different. I’ve always had a different outlook on life, and people, and so on. I try to be a nice guy, just like everybody else, but people never seem to do the same. I’m quite an anti-social person, so there’s that, but I always have time for people if they need me and never close the door on anyone – until they walk all over or something equally depressing.
Like most people on here (I imagine), I’ve […]
My family are all two-faced bitches! If only i had known sooner, i would have never had anything to do with them, although they caused me loads of problems from 2008-2010 so i don’t know why the hell i didn’t come to terms sooner, i’m most likely retarded… All i know is i hate them!
Erggghhh! Why the fuck am i still here?! I’m sorry but i need to get this out, and it won’t be the same if I dont swear.
Im going to admit this now, I’ve told No one this ever. But fuck it, let’s tell a bunch of strangers! I’ve been screwed up since birth. I was born witha type of arthritis in my joints, so walking, crawling, sports, all of it was painful. Eventually people noticed I wasnt like everyone else. I’ve been bullied ever since I entered those school gates. But i was too nice, and no innocent […]
Hello SP
So I have gotten it into my head that I don’t want to be alone anymore. I have been doing much better lately, I have seeing my friends more and I have been nicer in general to everybody. But it is hard and change isn’t coming easy.
everyday is different, some days I feel like a piece of shit and I feel like I deserve to be alone. Other days I feel like I want to find a girl and make her happy, I feel like I would do anything for them to make them happy.
I guess I can feel change creeping in, now I have thoughts like you should […]
Sometimes I wish I could go back to 2010/: yeah, there was drama.. but not as bad as now. I miss old friends, and family. I miss all living together in one house and not worrying about who I’ll be spending Christmas. When friends were forever, or even just a day. and there was really not alot that could depress me… my life now… -complete opposite-
another sleepless night with crying, screaming into my pilllow and suffering 🙁 i wrote this in the night…. hope you like it.
fires ablaze within my eyes
a smile concealing all my lies screaming, begging calling out
a final frantic desperate shout.
i dont know why i feel this way
i never asked for pain, tears or suffering i was normal at one point in life
i was full of smiles, laughter and happiness
i wish i knew the cause of this pain to find a way to make it all stop.
have you ever felt like giving up this fight
have you ever slit your wrists or
have you ever picked up a knife
i […]
I don’t know if I should post on here anymore. My friend found me and has read why I put, and I’m betting you they think I’m a total freak, I don’t know if they deleted the account….so yeah. I’m a screw up, everything I do backfires. Even looking for help fucked up
i love him so much.
but why am i such a ***** to him lately?
probably cuz i feel like he dont care anymore
probably cuz my mood swings are hella bad this time the year.
i cant lose him ever. even if sometimes i wish hed just back off.
I DONT MEAN IT! i need him more then anything. i miss the way him and i used to be
yeah we live far apart but maybe thats why. maybe just maybe i need him here. but no arguing with him day after day i think i might have just pushed him away.
devin, im […]
I love you my dearest sunflower! thank you for coming over today and filming my dailey majestic life!
I am just glad that i finally got to see you and give you your christmas gifts!! hope your day was as good as mine 🙂
Me: em I’m really suicidal
Her: J, I really don’t care.
Me: well that hurts.
Her: I told you I really don’t care.
she’s my best friend. I need someone to talk to but all i have is my cat. and he dont seem to care either :'(
I feel so used n fucking disgusting…..
I’ve noticed that when you’re on the edge, the littlest things can set you off. The tiniest little issue gets your blood boiling. Makes you wanna disappear or kill yourself and occasionally makes you want to kill other people. Perhaps I’m just a really angry person and I just wanna be alone. Maybe I just want peace and quiet.
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