Putting a smile on my face

I am only walking around and putting that smile on my face, I feel like I am torn apart, broken and can’t be fixed. I am doing my best too get by. Not a day goes by were I wish I could fade away and see if anyone would care. Honestly I think not that many people would even notice if I just faded away. Nothing is ever going too change I’ll always be the un-fixable girl. all alone here on the other end, I just do not want too keep going anymore you have too understand that if I do give up its not your fault. You shouldn’t be hurt, it was for the best when I think about it…. Its only a matter of time before I give up. I do not want too keep doing this anymore, I have tried too hard too keep on going but I am saying goodbye not to day but sooner or later. I just do not even know how or when… all I know is eventually I am going and that’s that.