It’s been so long since I’ve written. So glad to be back with my family. Have you ever just sought comfort from a stranger? I know I have.
A lot had happened.
Me and Brice (love of my life) went out…once again. He ended up not talking to me for 2 whole weeks. Then he said he never wanted to talk to me again. I once again wrote my suicide letter, thinking I had nothing more to live for. I think it was the 6th time. But anyways he eventually ended up talking to me again. We still talk. Everything is not solved and I’ve promised so many people that I won’t go back to him but I can’t help the thoughts of my arms around his neck. But I’m going to just push that thought away for as far as I can.
My school went to a play for a field trip. I sat beside my best guy friend. He ended up holding my hand during the play. He’s never done that. He told my friend that I was everything he’s ever wanted and he wants to be with me for a long time. So as the story goes, we started dating. One day after we started dating he cheated on my with 2 other girls. I found out 2 weeks later. Oh course this is another reason I don’t trust anyone.
I started cutting again.
After over a month.
I hate myself for it everyday.