Theres a girl … she doesnt know how to handle things… everythings spirling out of control… sometimes she can convince herself that shes not really alive… maybe shes in a nightmare.. and she just cant wake up..?
You’d never guess her secret if you knew here.. she hides it so well… she seems so happy… do you want to know her secret..? She cuts herself. She doesnt know why… and she doesnt understand why she resolved to it.. but one thing she knows is SHE CANT STOP.. but why ..?
When she feels out of control.. overwelmed with emotion.. cutting helps helps her calm down and be able to think… but at the same time .. when she feels so numb.. empty.. cutting helps her feel alive… even if only for a moment… she didnt have an easy childhood.. there was always aruging.. giving.. never recieving and she never felt good enough.. important.. enough… who would care if she cut..? Everyones better off without me.. thats what she told herself day after day.. she was everything she despised.. sometimes she would sit in her room crying.. a razor blade in her hand.. at the ready.. hearing laughter from down stairs she never felt more ALONE.. and yet no one noticed … she just wanted a hug.. someone to lover her.. and tell her everythings okay.. and that they cared.. so why didnt they…? Sometimes she thought about dieing just taking a load of pills.. and ending everything.. whou would care after all.. right.
She was only 11.. a lonely and misunderstood girl by the time she was 13.. her body was covered in scars and cuts she just wanted to be LOVED .. was that to much to ask?? She always tried to be everyones idea of perfect.. she complety lost who she was.. she lied to her friends and faimaly just so she wouldnt have to see the tears of dissapointment in their eyes.. she wanted someone to understand … to care…. but it didnt happen.
Who knows if anyone ever cared for her?
Who knows if she can ever escape from cutting?
One day you might relise you’ve known her all along the bubbly girl who tells you her cat scratched her.. could be hiding it all under a smile..
She wants someone.. needs someone..
Theres a girl
Do you want to know her secret? she cuts herself so help her.. thats all she wants.. NEEDS can you guess who she is?
.. shes me..
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Hello there little one. I saw your first picture and I commented so check the media section. We all have our secrets many of us here hold such secrets. You are among kindred spirits.
I commented..
Hi BrooklynBoxx thanks for the comment. It helps to know that theres someone i can relate to. You commented on my post about my promise to not cut again. I have 2 profiles on this website. shadow of the day is my other profile. I hope you can break the habit too.
Your welcome just wondering but how old are you ? Im 14 turning 15 in march.
just turned 16 this past september. I remember when i was 14 like it was just yesterday.
I commented again ;c
@Lonewofl23
I thought you were happy with dawn wolfy?
@lonewolf
how long have u been cutting?
commented again ;c
I just started cutting but i cant seem to go a day without pain and i just want to cut. I’m sorry it started earlier for you. I cant even imagine the pain at such a young age.
I am but she needed time to sort a problem out for two days. she said she needed to think problems out so im giving her some space.
I am but she needed time to sort a problem out for two days. she said she needed to think problems out so im giving her some space.
its been 4 years now. The longest ive quit was 8 months.. im currently in yet ANOTHER sexual assalt case and went to CAC on wendsday. ( childs advocacy center) to do a recorded interview. They caught him on school cameras thought so it should hopefully end quickly. But they havent told me if they caught him doing the stuff he did to me… so i dont know .. i didnt even wanna tell my dad i was talking to a friend asking what to do.. i fell asleep and the last thing she sent was report him,, and when my dad looked at my phone he got concerned and looked throught my messages..
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
i feel dumb for coming to this post and commenting to say i commented on the other one lol
I dont know why it keeps posting twice. thats weird.
But hey if you ever need to talk theres this website http://us5.******.com/SP-Chat. If you ever need to talk about anything im here to listen. I made a great friend on there recently.
Oh gawd wolfy don’t corrupt her with chat. I created that monster and there are good people on there but mostly its cliques and fights…u.u….ease her into things…don’t want someone to start something with this young lass.
Its fine xD i did it to sweet heart lmfao
wait do you to know each other O_O what is this chat you speak of…?
yah i Love this friend of mine.
Hi Brooklyn, I was a cutter too. It’s been awhile but whenever things get overwhelming cutting is the first thing I was to do. Just because I’m much older than you doesn’t mean we don’t have things on common.
wait AtTheEnd are you saying you created ******? Is it true?
You are the sweet heart. Oh well months ago. I and another discussed creating a chat. Since then I made this chat. Someone manages it for me because I don’t have a steady income to pay for the room. I don’t particularly know wolfy but he seems nice. I do however know the chatroom. It is the SP-chat on ****** dot com. Theres a link on the top right hand corner of the main sp site. The site….well theres a lot of fights…moderators dont enforce the rules as much as I expect. People are quite perverted…which I find quite wrong because its like members who in their 30’s talking dirty with little teenagers. Also people have formed groups…so new people can sometimes feel ignored or unwelcome. BUT the chat is also quite well when you need a person to talk to immediately. Some of the people there are quite caring. I myself am tired of the chat and wish I had never created such a monster. Everyone has their own opinion so try the chat if you like. If you end up on the chat I doubt we will be seing much of you here on the main site which happens to many people.
Why yes lonewolf23 I am it’s creator. It’s sort of a secret because I no longer visit the site and do not moderate anymore Strontium is in charge of it, he does a good job managing it.
well I met Dawn AKA Alanis and shes become my best friend…….And well i guess my first friend. I’m just glad i talked to her first and not some of the other guys. I understand what you mean. some people do seem a bit….well not a bit but really perverted. And yes theres also alot of fights. I wish that would change.
That is why I chose to leave that place. It is both a horrible place and a wonderful place at the same time. It depends on how things go for someone. Who knows. I do feel a bit ashamed that part of my legacy is that chat…but the good thing is no one really knows i made it.
i dont think ima try the chat.. sounds scaryy
Hey girlie i made a post about you look at it XD
i didnt see this comment xD i shall the post about me first thank you 🙂
Hi.
I think I am almost like you, I’ve been cutting for about 3 years.
I’m.only 13. I’ve waisted my life being depressed, even if I keep myself alive, I would be hurt by myself for the whole life.
I wanna die, really. Take.some pills.. We have a few ones at home. VERY strong against allergy, anti-depression ect. We have a lot of alcohol to.
What should I do?