I’m almost 14 years old and I don’t know what’s happening. I’ve always had a good life. Protected, secure. Always a good student and had a lot of friends. In December of 2011 I started cutting I stopped after 3 months. I felt alone even when I wasn’t. Myy life was in great shape for awhile. But all of a sudden I’ve started feeling alone, I’ve cried myself to sleep and the worst part is no one in a million years would even guess that I would feel this way. I recentley fell in love with my best guy friend. My parents are splitting up and my friends don’t listen to me when I open my mouth. I can’t stand it. It hurts. I just want the world to vanish. Forever. I want to close my eyes one night and never open them back up. It would be easier than crying, easier than struggling to be happy, easier than bringing a knife down upon my wrists, or easier than swallowing those pills in the bathroom cabinet just 8 feet away. I’m alone when I’m not. I tried to tell my best friend about all this pain but of course she didn’t listen. She just started talking about her new love interest. Why won’t anyone listen?
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What you’re writing is sort of familiar to me. I don’t think I’ve experienced what you have, but the way you’re writing it makes me really sad, because I remember writing stuff like this in my journal a few years back. I hope you weren’t crying when you wrote this; You sound like a nice person, I don’t think you deserve the hurt you’re going through.
But the thing is you’re writing things like ‘I want people to go away’, while this whole post is you urging people to listen to you. You can’t expect them to listen once they’ve left, so instead of wanting everything to vanish, make someone listen to what you have to say. Things will turn out better if you try your hardest to speak loudly.