Hi my name is Alexandra.
Me being on a website like this would be disapproved by all my family. But my family is not willing to help me and not willing to see the the problem I have as a big deal. I love them all so much but they will not give me help, and help is exactly what I need.
I cut I dont really remember the reason I started or even how I started all I know is that it felt…good.
My mom use to tell me what reason doÂ I have to be sad? I don’t know I just know that I am sad. She found my cuts one time and she yelled at me and got mad then somehow my sisters found out and they were all on my case. But it was forgotten soon after. Then I showed my mom and dad the cuts on my legs and my dad didnt really react to it he didn’t care it seemed that way. My mom got mad again. I told her I had an intention and that was to kill myself. It wasnt for attention or anything like my sister and her thought. I have suicidal thoughts and three times I tried to hang myself to see what it felt like. My whole family at this very moment have forgotten that I cut. They dont check my arms or anything. I’ve asked my parents for therpay and after a whole year my mom finaly called for therapy for me.
I am 13 and I lost my virginity maybe 5 months ago? I lost it to a guy that was my friend in 6th grade. Loosing my virginity to him was the hardest emotional thing that happened to me at the time I was like cool cant’t believe I did that that was cool. But now i cry almost every night because I did that.
This is only part of my story.