Broken and ready to give it all up

I honestly dont know what Im doing here…..sharing my story with strangers. But I guess I really have nowhere else to turn….I really dont even know dif anyone reads these things anymore.

Anyway, here goes nothing. I am 26 with 3children. My oldest was born handcapped and lives with her father. My boys have been in foster care since October 2011. Here in Canada, if a child is under the age of 6 and in foster carefor more then a year, they lookto putting them up for adoption. To know me is to know my children are my world and the only reason they were removed from mycare was because of instability in the housing area.

I have since, maintained stable house but it seems as tho nothing I do is right in the eyes of the world. I seemy children 5 hrs a week and from going from being a single 24/7 single mother with entirely no help to this has traumatized me and them. I feel I have failed them and theres just no point