I use to have these feelings in my late teens, now a few years later they all just came right back in one day. granted they popped in my insane head a few days before but just briefly. Now its all I think about. Its all I think about that my “GF” keeps lieing to me, and being sneaky. Everytime I confront her about it she TRIES to turn it around on me. I cant it anymore. Trust me, thers more problems going on with me that lil bit**. But she’s the icing on the cake. I just want to WHACK myself like the mobsters use to say. I can’t escape the future anymore it’ll come up and haunt me. I cant STAND WOMAN ANYMORE!! I cant stand LIFE ANYMORE!!! I cant trust anyone. I HATE BEING LIED TO! Makes me feel like a big worthless POS. I just cant take it anymore. Death is a great ESCAPE from this! Atleast death aint going to LIE TO ME! Iv had GFs in the past do awfull shit to me…BUT NOT THIS GIRL. She the one that actualy broke my trust. im done wtih life..
aka-dead man #2
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I feel so much the same way, but with men. Every time I have a near suicidal breakdown it is over a man being untrue. When I say how vulnerable I am, what part of that do they not get?? Or just don’t care??
They get it, and they may even care. But people care, ultimately, more about the things they themselves want than about what others’ want. I hear ya, Corvette. No more trust.