Ok… I have made an attempt to hang myself few weeks ago and I did not have the courage to step down the chair I was on…. If only I could do it, I would not be suffering today. Yesterday, I started a blog where I write all I feel about suicide and my depression. http://notgosuicide.blogspot.ca/
I am so disappointed that I do not have support from my family (wife especially). She (like most of the people) does not understand that I am not selfish neither I do it in purpose to be such depressed. All she says is that she’s fed up and tired (ok, understand that it is not easy to leave with a depressed person). But… the fact that she reacts in such manner makes me depressed even more and I think more and more about doing another attempt.
I just would like to be heard without judgement.
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You have to have a heart to heart conversation with your wife. I’m sure she is an understanding person, but it is difficult for many people to deal with a depressed person. Normal people do not really understand how it feels when you are depressed. Before you hang yourself, please talk to your wife and try to come to some understanding. You need help and she is your loving wife, so she should help you cope.
Oops, I thought you were female on your other post that I just responded to. Sorry.
Yes, you want to be heard without judgement. Understandable. However, it appears that your wife is unable to do so. So, you could think, “I want to be heard without judgement. My wife does not do this. This is okay. I accept she does not have the skills or the patience to do this. I can cope with her being this way. ” In the meantime, you can speak to us. We won’t judge you. Contacting a psychotherapist is also an option. Is there a lifeline number you can contact, where you can talk with a counselor?