I want to make a change..

I still hate myself, and i’m still struggling to make it through the day without crying.
At night, I still find myself wanting to die.

But what good would that do? I want my life to get better– not destroyed.  But in order for my life to get better, I need to make a move. I need to get out more- see the world, and try to see the good in it. Living my life hiding away from everyone won’t do anything good, I need to change that- I can’t hide forever. I need to meet new people. The thing is, how am I supposed to meet new people when it feels like I haven’t really spoken to anyone in months?

The things I hate about my life are the things I have to change. I can’t just put on a smile and be truly happy- but I can do small things that will make me feel a little better. Instead of complaining about something not being done- just do it. Small things that will benefit you should be done. I hate my appearance, but I know i’m not ugly. I can change what I look like- nothing is impossible.
I could try and change my entire life if I wanted to. If you’re willing to put in the effort, you’re willing to give life a chance.

“But there’s still tomorrow,
forget the sorrow,
And I can be on the last train home.
Watch it pass the day, as it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today.”