Before I start, here’s some background…clinically depressed 31 yr old female, on 30mg citalopram (celexa) for the last 3+ years, last 6-9 months been feeling progressively worse, last 3 months suicidal, changed to sertraline (Zoloft) 6 weeks ago.
at the moment I feel, we’ll, not much really, not happy, not sad, not suicidal. Uninterested I guess. I find it difficult to concentrate for long, flit from thing to thing, and can’t really say I get any enjoyment out of anything I do…not that I dislike what I’m doing – I guess this could almost be a feeling of contentment(?!) apart from one thing. I feel like my life (if you can call it that) is already over. I feel ancient. Tired. Like I’ve missed all my opportunities and its just too late for me now.
Is that still the depression, or is that just me? How would I know, how can I know if that’s me or the drugs? I don’t know how to shake it 🙁 even though I feel “ok” at the mo, that feeling makes me want to kill myself.
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your still depressed. have your doc either change to meds or increase them. it can take yrs to find yiyr right concaction. dont give up.
Depression is a symptom of insulin resistance and/or malnutrition. Forget about those worthless drugs that worthless doctors hand out like candy.
Ii had a doctor tell me maybe it was just who I am. I am supposed to be this way. How can anyone be meant to feel like this. Like death would be such a relief.
You’re still depressed, I think. I can sort of relate – I feel numb sometimes, I just can’t bring myself to care about anything at times.
eric are you a doctor?
this is a repeat from another post i commented on:
not just you but all of us we enjoy feeling pain so much we get numb to it, it’s like a high to us more pain! so we can feel it! were addicted to it, we don’t want to be happy we want to be negitive all the time! we don’t want to give anything a chance we like right were we are, feeling sorry for ourselfs, and telling everybody how fucked up we are, thats our fix we don’t need drugs.