Before I start, here’s some background…clinically depressed 31 yr old female, on 30mg citalopram (celexa) for the last 3+ years, last 6-9 months been feeling progressively worse, last 3 months suicidal, changed to sertraline (Zoloft) 6 weeks ago.
at the moment I feel, we’ll, not much really, not happy, not sad, not suicidal. Uninterested I guess. I find it difficult to concentrate for long, flit from thing to thing, and can’t really say I get any enjoyment out of anything I do…not that I dislike what I’m doing – I guess this could almost be a feeling of contentment(?!) apart from one thing. I feel like my life (if you can call it that) is already over. I feel ancient. Tired. Like I’ve missed all my opportunities and its just too late for me now.
Is that still the depression, or is that just me? How would I know, how can I know if that’s me or the drugs? I don’t know how to shake it 🙁 even though I feel “ok” at the mo, that feeling makes me want to kill myself.