Love.

Hi, I’m a new user here.. I found this site about a week ago and I was really afraid to post on here but here I go…

I’m a fourteen year old girl who suffers right side hempledgia (weakness all down my right side) and it also comes along with depression. (and anger issues but shh..)
I know some of you are thinking I’m some wannabe emo kid but I’ve kind of been kicked off of those sites for being too “soft” or what not. But I’m just here because I feel like I’m not alone.
And trust me I feel alone all the time, I was bullied from the age of 11 to 13 by this girl who was just as insecure as I was. But I forgive her for everything. I started burning at 11 and cutting at 12. I hated my life and still do but I always feel alone.
There’s a group of girls who use to cut and when one of them found out they kind of invited me into their group and were all proud for cutting and one of them tells me if I cut again she’ll never talk to me but she seems to be the only person I trust at school.
I feel like she only talks to me when I’ve cut recently or if she sees recent cuts.

I have a friend, from Canada (online), I’ve known her for 2 years (3 years this July.) and she has been the only person who’s been there for me through everything. I love her so much and hope I get to meet her someday since she lives in the same city as my aunt.

I really just want somebody who will make me happy, not nessarily a boyfriend but a friend. Someone that will keep me laughing and forgetting about my worries.
Sometimes I feel like I’ll never be loved or I’ll be too depressed to love anyone.

Okay, I guess that’s all but not the full story but oh well.
Um… I have Kik Messenger if anyone wants to talk.
Kik: waiticantdance
Twitter: @fitliketwobirds
tumblr: floralunicorns.tumblr.com