All I wanted was his happiness..he’s happy
I wanted to be able to say her name without getting angry…I can
I wanted to have people to talk to…I do
I wanted to lose weight…I am
So why am I still crying?
He’s happy with someone else
Instead of getting angry when IÂ say Skye I get angry when I say Rain
So many people to talk to..none understand
Starving myself..getting major headaches just to lose weight like they said
Crying uncontrollably…none of this is enough
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I know, but you have two choices. Put on the smile again, and scrape by, blocking it out. Pretend he’s not there anymore. Or you could find a way to release the pain.. Not by cutting. Or starving yourself. I’ve learned and I find it easier to just pretend. And when your alone. Just let it out. Anyway.
I understand. You shouldn’t cry or feel bad. If he wasn’t happy with you he wasn’t good enough for you. The girl I thought I loved is currently in a good relationship with someone else. We broke up and she moved on and I said good for you and even gave her advice on what to say to him. I told her I was fine but I’m not, I cut myself and am always depressed, and I blame myself for not making her happy enough to stay with me, but thats irrational. Please don’t cry and don’t starve yourself. I have a stomach acid condition and can’t eat unless I take a ton of medicine, be happy you can. The fact that you care so much about someone shows that you really are a good person and are able to have a great relationship. You need to just go on with life, talk to those people, eventually you’ll start to feel better.
this is so relevant to my life, not the first one at the moment though, but the rest. i want you to know that there are others feeling similar pain and they will understand. i starve myself too, but i kinda love the taste of food so its really difficult for me.. im down to about half a meal to a meal a day. but sometimes i’ll purge on food and it makes me fucking hate myself more than i already do. i cry every night now, lol and im the happiest i’ve been in years, so its kinda odd.
if you ever want to vent on about anything to someone you may email me
storyofmyscars@hotmail.com
feel better hun.
hi rain alicia,
i am in a similar situation as you are and believe me i can understand the pain which you are going through.see the tears are never going to stop and neither is the pain and the brutal truth is that your lover is not going to understand your pain.i am really sorry because i am telling this but believe me dear this is a truth.now only you have to decide my dear that you want to live your rest of your life crying for him or you want to change everything.only you can help yourself my dear. i know it is very painful and believe me i can understand your pain but you need to find a path out of all these.seriously and there is a path which can take you out of all these.it is just that you need to chose it.if you need help or any advice how to overcome then do tell me.because in my case one person really helped me a lot.so i feel the same can happen with you also…
I am even in a far much fuckd up situation…my girl friend was dating a guy..i only got to know about that when the guy told me that the only reason she was going out with me was because i could help her get into school…you dont want to begin to imagine how i felt.then she came back crying and saying it was all a lie..fact was that i believed her till the guy brought me a pic of them together..
thats a hell of a situation and knowing that anyone can be so heatless to that point. im so sorry lesswill, its insane what some people will do. i understand you so well…
if you or rain want to talk im here. my mail appears in comments and im happy to talk to any of you. hope you will. stay strong!