Only once..

I only shall his once today, i didnt go any where near the cafeteria and chilled in the liabary all morning. I took really odd and out of the way routes to all my classes to make it easier on myself, i only shall him once after school. It was the only way out of the science building and there he stood waiting for his girlfriend i bit my lip as i walked past his friend cody spotting me grabbing my arm saying something i couldnt understand. I shook his arm off quickly and ran off, looking long enough to see tanner looking at me strangley. I wanted to die, i just wanna dissapear from his life and for him to dissapear from mine. God it would be so much easier..

But i kept it together.

I went to some church thing i brought to and was wearing a new shirt with the new shoes i got that finally arrived today. A kid shall my wrist today, just the scars he yelled at me saying “you better not be fucking doing that no more?! your not doing that are you brooklyn??!” A whole bunch of kids were around as he grabbed my shoulder ( one with cuts all over it) i bit my lip “no i havent im fine im fine” i smiled and diverted it off the subject, long sleeves.. no matter what i’ll always have to wear then no matter how good i think i hide them.. it never works i’m always .. caught..

sorry for me being stupid again i guess i like the idea of just talking getting it out. I dont know forgive me please..