I can’t cope, I feel so hopeless and pained. My friend has just publically humilated me with her boyfriends help and got others to join in, she knows how vunreable i am right now and for her to do this hurts so much to me. I want to die, I want to die so badly, I sat in my living room by my family wishing so much that I could walk upstairs and slit my wrists so deep and just bleed to death. I slowly walked upstairs, picked up my razor crying and cut.
But ofcourse I only did it how i usuall did it, staightÂ horizontalÂ lines across my wrist, nothing too serious, well nothing that would kill me atleast. But somehow the normally reassuring dripping of my blood is not sufficing me, Im alone. So very very alone, I cant speak to my parents they dont understand, Im alone in this world. I just want to leave it, why do I not have the strength to kill myself. I guess it scares me but I just want to. That would show them all, I want them to be wrecked with guilt as they know that all of them helped slightly to kill me. That they were in aÂ senseÂ murderers. IÂ haven’tÂ felt so low in such a long time, I need to get away from all of them. From all the pain.