quite pathetic

I’m struggling with an eating disorder. I’m not even going make it sound big and scary; I have EDNOS or baby anorexia. Because I’m overweight and I still get my period. Some people might think, “Not having an actual eating disorder is a good thing!” However, I feel pathetic for not having the real thing. It’s like I can’t be sane enough to just lose weight naturally, and I’m not jacked up enough to have anorexia.