I am a cutter. I am 12 years old. I guess I cut because I feel like I am disappointing everyone. Mainly my parents. My sister, and My brother are both straight A students, and I have difficulty in school and my parents don’t understand. They think I’m supposed to be a genius, but I am lazy. But the reality is that I have trouble learning. They won’t let me see my BFFs (the only people that make me happy) because they think they distract me from schoolwork. My friends aren’t really my friends anymore because of that. I also started getting mean notes in my locker saying things that really hurt me. And my parents think I am fat, and are always telling me to go to the gym, in the meanest ways. One time I woke up and heard my parents making fun of me with my brother and sister. I feel like I should just die, and do a favor to everyone. I want to so bad! But every time I try someone is there to save me… 🙁
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It makes me very sad when I see someone as young as u on this site. Your life has barely begun . I used to be very lazy too, and I never got good grades until now that I’m in collage. Studying becomes much more interesting and enjoyable when u study what you like, but yeah unfortunately u have to go through grade school before u can study what u like in collage.
It is very hurtful when your own family makes fun of you. U really can’t be a disappointment since u haven’t really done anything yet. So hang in there as u grow older u become more independent and more in control of ur own life. I don’t know what else to say, you should probably tell someone about the mean notes you’re getting in your locker. Maybe an adult u trust?
Find an adult, possibly a nice teacher? that you trust and explain to them. Sometimes it helps just to tell someone in person whats on your mind. I can relate to family trouble, but mine just ignores me, they dont make fun of me. Why dont you ignore them. They’re acting pretty badly and I’m sorry. I also cut, I’m trying to stop but its hard. Try to quit now while you can. Maybe once you happier you’ll be more motivated and less lazy. Feel free to tell you family that. I hope you feel better.
P.S. Do your geometry homework in the hallway in front of your math teacher who takes it up as you walk into class and finish before the bell rings… Challenge accepted! (uhh, dont do that, its just something i did one day when i forgot we had homework, i hoped it would make you laugh, btw, i got a 58, bad idea)
Yeah, talk to one of your teachers or counselors who you feel comfortable talking to about your feelings. Please stop cutting yourself and start loving yourself. You’re too young to die.