Anyone seen Wreck-It-Ralph?
Well, the title’s inspired by it.
Finals are next week. I’m barely keeping up in one class. That class has the E. The rest of them are B’s or higher. Science has never interested me much, and the only time it did was in Biology. That was the only class I liked. And then Accelarated Chemistry this year just tore my mind to shreds.
Just trying to understand the very basics of Chemistry will send me into a suicidal-crying-fit. Now it’s finals, and I still don’t understand 90% of it. I tried to get out of it before, but I couldn’t. So I just tried to buckle through it. This led to nearly 4 and a half months of terrors, failures, crying, suicidal shit, and all that. I’m getting out oof it to go into Regullar Chemistry next semester. But I don’t think it will make a difference. Because I think my problem is either A) The teacher goes way too fast. B) I just don’t get it. or C) … something. I hope that Regular Chemistry is easier. Because if it isn’t, then I have a serious problem.
Other than school, Christmas was pretty cool. I got a new laptop and a bunch of cool tech gear. Headset, memory cards for my camcorder. a little wood mannequin (I’m strangely obsessed with mannequins), and a nice Evanescence hoodie. It’s a nice blend between gothic and emo.
Lately, the pressure and stress have been adding up faster than usual. With Finals right around the corner, family issues, and my mood swings, it’s no wonder I’m getting all these thoughts in my head. I just try to ignore them as best I can, and hope that tomorrow won’t be the day I go bye bye. This isn’t a suicide note, I swear. It’s just an honest-to-something update on my life. I just need somewhere to type that isn’t OpenOffice or Notepad.