February 17th, 2013by AscahIsBroken

I want to die in my sleep. Maybe that’s why an overdose on sleeping pills seems so appealing to me. Even if I die painfully and before I can doze off.. The thought of death by a sleep method seems so peaceful, serene and even more beautiful than having conscious thought while tying a noose or pulling the trigger.
What if I don’t want to wake up in heaven?
I don’t want there to be hell either…
I just don’t want to wake up.
The only thing keeping myself from taking those pills is the thought that even after I die… I still have to live in the afterlife.
I believe that the afterlife exists.
But I wish that there was a way for everything just to be over. Done.
No heaven. No hell. Just nothing.

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