feeling worthless

I lost my new job. Have no car. My family has disowned me. I have no car and live in a motel with my bf who also recently lost his job. I don’t do drugs, I hardly ever drink, I’m honest and kind. But I am bipolar and diabetic and ADHD and depressed and probably have personality disorder. I am stubborn but very sensitive. I’m so tired of being stressed and broke and scared and feeling worthless to the world. I hate how others gladly walk all over good people and mistreat them for their own success or profit. I’m sad. I sometimes dream of death. But know it would be a waste and make no difference.