Stumbled across this site as I was feeling down about Valentine’s Day yesterday. I hate the day. I’m a bit of a nerd and geek and still single. All my life I seemed to make stupid mistakes and never seemed good enough.
I’ve gone as far as tie ropes around my neck, write suicide notes, and pack my stuff to make it easier for those left behind to clean my mess.
I still struggle with suicidal thoughts but not as bad as when I was younger. I’m 45yo now.
What has helped me is to focus on others. Volunteering at church, making friends – listening to them and helping them when the opportunity comes, and trying my best to be kind and encouraging to others I come across at work and in my day to day routine.
No I’m not perfect but I do try.
When I’m down, like I was yesterday, I’ll call a friend and talk about how things are going for him and his life instead of talking about me.
In addition, when I’m dwelling on suicide I know now that I’m being totally selfish. I’m not thinking of all the family and friends I’ll hurt deeply with that act if I were to do it.
Well, hope this post helps someone out there. I can identify with many of you and know your pain. I see now that suicide isn’t the answer and I hope others will realize that too.