I loved you, I loved you so so much, but I could just never tell you, I wanted to keep you as my friend and I tried, I tried so hard to keep my friend. I always try so hard with you and I just can’t do it anymore, you don’t understand how much it’s hurting me that you don’t even acknowledge the effort I make, it might not seem like much but it’s hard for me to just let go, but i’m trying but I just don’t even see why anymore babe. I’m sick of of you throwing me aside for what you consider ‘a better girl’ every time, do you know how much of a slap in the face that is?
It was all breaking my heart, the fact that I could see you falling out of love with me before my eyes and I just felt like there was nothing i could do, the fact that as time went on I could see my friendship meant absolutely nothing to you, I felt like such a stupid ****, trying to save a friendship, fighting to keep it and the whole time you didn’t even care enough to even reply to me when i tried to talk to you and be grown up about it.
I heard you talking about me behind my back, to my friends, I didn’t know what to do, for the first time, I never hit anyone, I didn’t scream or shout or throw a tantrum, you’ve worn me down and I don’t think that’s fair. HOW THE FUCK IS THAT FAIR? Everything was double standards with you, and I was even okay with that like some dickhead, but you just couldn’t let it go there, you had to take everything. I lost  my virginity, my friends, my self-worth, self-respect and confidence, you stole them from me, everything that was good about me and my personality, you just kept picking and picking at the bits you didn’t like, all my insecurities until there was nothing left of me. Why have you made me as fucked up as you?  Why do you think you have the right to talk shit about me after me keeping your dirty little secrets you fucking rat?  And why the fuck have I not kicked the shit out of you? I’ll tell you why, because you’re not worth the impact that the negative energy would have on me.
Despite everything, THIS IS IT, you’re not gonna get to me anymore, because you know what? Yea i’m abit fucked up, I’m not perfect, I have more insecurities, flaws, trust issues and problems than you’ve had hot dinners but if you think for one minute, you can just get away with treating me like shit for months while I was practically a free vagina/therapist/mother to you then you’re wrong, I’d think of something more ‘clever’ or ‘witty’ to say, but that’s what’ll hurt your ego more than anything, being wrong. You made me feel like shit on your shoe, but i’m not. I’m talented, creative, funny and generous and there’s someone out there who’s gonna love it and appreciate it, I don’t care if anyone else does because I care for me and this has just reinforced that. You on the other hand are selfish, two-faced, lazy and immature, it’s you I pity because you’ve lost the best friend you’ve ever had and you don’t even realize it yet.
I wanna look back and remember all of the nice times, but when I do look back there wasn’t any, not really we were just high all the time. There was a time it was different, when it was all perfect and easy and we’d talk and laugh all the time, but I can’t remember the last time things were like that, I wanna walk away now before things become even more fucked up and I can’t even hold onto the few nice memories I have ’cause if there’s one thing I deserve to keep, that’s what it is.
I love you, bye.