is.it ‘lying’ if i tell my guy friend that im in school when im actually not? i want to tell him the truth but i fear i will be judge and ashamed that ill look pathetic how i still havent graduated high school due to the embaressing social.anxiety reason. i honeslty feel awkward just letting t out on this site to random people i dont know. i fear he wont understand and even if he does ill feel awkward. these feeling dont go away ino matter wht i tel myself. i dont want to go on ‘lying’ to him mich further. what should i do.
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Sounds like you are already judging yourself rather harshly.
Is it possible that the judgments your concerned about are aren’t really just a projection of the judgments you’ve made about yourself. If so you should probable address that first.
The place to start would honestly deal with your feelings and judgments about yourself concerning the issues you mentioned.
We are more than the sum of our parts; a single attribute does not define us.
A question you might ask yourself is what you would think if the roles were reversed? Would you judge your friend the same way you fear? If so what does that say about your relationship?
A relationship based on a single attribute won’t last while being able to be yourself and honest… well isn’t that what you really want for him and yourself.
That is lying. He would be happier if you told him the truth rather than lie just because you are embarrassed. If your anxiety is the problem for school than you should talk to your doctor and talk over your options to solve it. Nothing is going to help you by just not going and lying to your friends. If he is a friend he will want to help. If he judges its because he thinks you deserve better. If he is a friend, he will be your friend whether you are in school or not. If you hate the awkward feeling than take that feeling away. Pump yourself up – remind yourself that you shouldnt have to feel awkward if he is your friend, and if you do then you are clearly insecure about how he feels of you and you should look over your friendship with him to find out why. If you cant do it on your own by pumping yourself up then get intoxicated and tell him. Not for the excuse later in the morning but for the liquid courage that will help take that embarrassed feeling away.
Hope this helps