Day was especially crap. But that is no surprise. Don’t really feel like talking about it.
I have a question though,
Should I get a cat?
Let me explain a bit, I’ve always LOVED cats, I’ve done volunteer work at a cat shelter, I absolutely love them. They are like my soulmates (if that makes any sense). I had one, which would scratch me all the time, and once cut my eye lid and it was really bad (had to go to the hospital and all), and my mom started getting really worried and didn’t trust the cat, so we had to give him back. Then I got two other kitties, who I absolutely love, but as we moved abroad we had to leave them with another relative, who has a farm and lots of animals (and they are so happy and free there that I didn’t have the heart to stick them in a smal apartment after all that freedom, wouldn’t be fair). And after that my mom didn’t let me have another cus she said it would always be more work for her, etc etc.
But now, I’ll be alone. I really want to adopt one. I feel like it could save me. But then, things are getting really bad. And the thought of killing myself is getting more and more overwhelming. Then I’d be gone, and what about the cat? That would be selfish of me to leave him. Cus I honestly don’t see much of a long future for me.
I don’t know what to do.