Day was especially crap. But that is no surprise. Don’t really feel like talking about it.
I have a question though,
Should I get a cat?
Let me explain a bit, I’ve always LOVED cats, I’ve done volunteer work at a cat shelter, I absolutely love them. They are like my soulmates (if that makes any sense). I had one, which would scratch me all the time, and once cut my eye lid and it was really bad (had to go to the hospital and all), and my mom started getting really worried and didn’t trust the cat, so we had to give him back. Then I got two other kitties, who I absolutely love, but as we moved abroad we had to leave them with another relative, who has a farm and lots of animals (and they are so happy and free there that I didn’t have the heart to stick them in a smal apartment after all that freedom, wouldn’t be fair). And after that my mom didn’t let me have another cus she said it would always be more work for her, etc etc.
But now, I’ll be alone. I really want to adopt one. I feel like it could save me. But then, things are getting really bad. And the thought of killing myself is getting more and more overwhelming. Then I’d be gone, and what about the cat? That would be selfish of me to leave him. Cus I honestly don’t see much of a long future for me.
I don’t know what to do.
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You could adopt an older cat maybe? Say one that is 8-10 years old I guess (assuming they live to like 12-13). Then you could see if it helped you and if not, you won’t be committed to it for as long as if you got a kitten.
But I want a kitty. They are so cute. And you get to teach them, and see as they learn stuff. It’s like you get to see them grow up.
cats are quite independent, and quite amazing- some more so than others- the cat here in the house gives me much entertainment..getting a kitten there is more of a bond and they can be trained to do cool stuff (mine gets on its hind legs to lick yogurt pot and you can rub its belly and take amazing photos!) 100% if you like cats-get one!
simonire, yeah I know. They are independent, and what I love more about them is that they will only come to you IF they want to, not cus they are trained to. They are more real I guess. But then, if I kill myself, I’d leave the cat all alone..
(btw, funny how we commented on each other’s post at exactly the same time lol)
Then get one and enjoy it :)! You left some at a relatives farm. Just leave a note if you die for your family to take it there. Would that work?
Like, for me, having a cat is like having a family. Would you be able to leave someone who is dependent on you somewhere else? I wouldn’t. But then I would live a miserable life, cus I’d want to be dead.
I think that it would be good for you to have a nice kitten hazeleyes to take care of and love. You and the kitten would be taking care of each other. Cats and dogs are very instinctive and can tell if you’re feeling sad and they will try to cheer you up. And once you get your new kitten, you won’t be able to harm yourself, because you’ll have to take care of her. 🙂
Dave_N, yeah, that’s why I say the saving part. But I don’t think I will stop wanting to kill myself. And in the future my life is about to get really complicated and it will only make this all worse. That’s why I don’t want to have to abandom the cat. It wouldn’t be fair. But if things get much worse, I won’t be able to keep fighting for another day.
*hugs*
Now my gmail is freaking out on me. I hate technology.
I’m not mad at you! Why do you think that???
I started thowing up last night and was too sick to reply to anything. I’ve slept all day today because I was up all night. I have a fever of like 102F which is 38.9C (I think).
Please text me that you’re okay whenever you see this. I’m not mad, I’ll get back on tonight and talk. I’m worried now, but I can’t stay on this computer.
I was on here looking for you. I just want you to know that I’m not mad and I hope you aren’t. Please reply when you can. I want to talk, but am sick still and may not be awake when you answer.