no hope suicide note

i have cried enough tears in my life time,please dont shed any more,

i know what i done was cowardly and selfish, and how ironic the last thing i ever done was selfish

this wasnt a decision that came easy, i have been tormented, for months  now,

but without any hope of me or anyone else being able change the depressive side of this illness.

my life wasnt easy but you all played a part to make it easier than it would have ,

never want you to think i didnt love you enough to fight.

you always have made me so very proud and privileged to be part of your life,

i know you will continue making me proud

i dont need to explain my pain and suffering because you felt it too,

remember i have wanted this for so long now

you have done everything you possibly could,

i know you will never fully understand why,but please dont hate me,

hold on to the good that you could see in me,

remember me fondly, memories last a lifetime, love is eternal