I got back my results today …almost cried in class because I knew they would kill me …go home my dad just keeps screaming at my ….your a fucking idiot you will never amount to anything …..your disgrace, all i say is hes right because he is .Go to school crying … so no one talks to me all day..Go home this time my moms saying i am selfish ugly ***** for causing all this trouble ….im just too exhusted with the fighting to fight back .. im just done with everything .I use to not understnd why they hted me .. but i do now because I hate me too . I keep begging them to stop ..saying they would be happier if i was dead …. they lwys say kill yourself if yo wanna . I try like every week but its too hard , people say it will get better …bt my family hve alwys been like it …so how will it ever get better
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There’s not much to say, Rebecca, your parents are extremely emotionally abusive. The things they say to you are evil. Not just bad, evil. The way they treat you is disgusting. There isn’t anything I can really say that will make you feel totally better but I’d give you a big hug if I could.
It’s not your fault they treat you that way. I know it feels like you’ve failed, but it’s really them. Probably not until you’re an adult will you be able to accept that none of what’s happening to you right now is your fault. I’m sorry no one supports you or nurtures you like they should. We could demonize your parents for hours like they deserve, but that doesn’t make you feel any better.
Don’t hate yourself, sweetie. It’s not your fault. One day you’ll move out and you’ll never have to hear them say mean things to you ever again. I know these years are hard.
Thank you means lot to me 🙂
You know, when you graduate you can leave them. I know it might seem far away but just keep trying to live another day. You won’t have to be there forever. I know from my own experience that once you can get away, you will start to feel better. In the meantime, try to make some friends, anyone you can just talk with it doesn’t matter who. Also, I know this is obscenely hard, but try to be kind to everyone you meet. You will feel a tad better about yourself for that, and it will attract others to you. Hold on, its really hard right now, but do your best to get out of the situation. I wish you the best of luck and send you my love 🙂
Did anybody else see the this weeks Nova on PBS?
We all need to see it. It brought me understanding that is absolutely priceless. There are so many of us who come here, and it’s the same story every time, but there was no explanation.
The episode is called, “Mind of a Rampage Killer”. Most of us cry. A small handful of people do not cry, and move in the direction of hurting themselves or others. It’s not my fault. It’s not your fault. And being a victim has it’s own problems, so that’s something to try to avoid.
I’m so sorry to hear that your parents are being so mean to you Rebecca. They should be more loving and supportive. They are taking a ‘tough love’ approach to your depression, because they don’t know any other way. I’m sure that they love you, but they feel that a tough approach is better. Please don’t give up. I’m sure your parents will miss you if you were gone.