Wanting to die.

Wanting to die is a strange feeling. It consumes all of the joy in you and turns you into mere nothingness. Empty, cold and numb are the best words to describe it. It has gotten to the point where I can be dripping in my own blood, not feeling anything, no pain, no emotion. I thought he was a new beginning but I mean nothing as always and I don’t expect anything different nowadays. Some people know about my self harm and depression but none of them can fix me. I’m far too broken to ever be helped, I don’t even know what it feels like to be genuinely happy, isn’t that pathetic. I just want to die, to be gone and not be a burden anymore. That’s all I am, the problem child, the depressed emo friend, the girl with the distant look in her eye, I’m just broken. I just want it to be over.