What Do I Do?

I found the light, but I don’t have a fucking clue what to do with it. XD I really don’t. I’m not joking. I’m happy, but I feel like there’s got to be something more to it than this. My head is spinning from all the ideas of where  to go with my life now that I’ve cleared the road.  I just don’t know. I feel deep in my heart, somehow, I feel like I need, yes, I said need to tell Trevor what I feel about him. Strange, I know, but since I gave my life to God, I get these feelings sometimes, and when I do what I feel like I need to,  it turns out right. But he has a girlfriend. And they’ve been going out for months. Months. God. It sucks to see the guy that you like so much kissing a girl that you absolutely cannot stand. Ugh. Oh well. They broke up once, but they got back together before I could do anything. My “friend” Bailey likes Trevor, too, though. She likes everybody. I swear. I liked a guy named Brendan, and she got so pissed at me. If she gets mad about me liking Trevor, I’m honestly going to say this: “Look, you can’t have every fucking guy in the school. Pick one. Besides, I’ve liked him for a long time.” She’s got a boyfriend, anyway! They’ve been going out for about a month! Gosh. She just.. She’s worse than Emily sometimes. Emily just acts like she’s all I’ve got. Trust me, she’s not. I’ve got plenty of friends. And half of them might shun me if I tell Emily off, but I don’t care. I’ll still have friends, and those friends will be my true friends. But still. Back on track. I don’t even know if Trevor likes me, anyway. Oh well. I guess what will be, will be, right? I just hope that whatever happens is something great. It’s about time something good happened to me.